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美国孕育出三位伟大的作家 America has produced only three classic writers,
马克·吐温 J·D·塞林格和我 Mark Twain, J.D. Salinger, and me.
两者都是美国历史上著名的作家
我是乔纳森·弗林 I'm Jonathan Flynn.
我所写的都是传世经典 Everything I write is a masterpiece.
很快很快 And soon, very soon,
我就能一鸣惊人 I shall be known.
故事讲到这里 姑且称之为此刻吧 At this point of the story, let's call it the present,
我是一名正派的美国公民 I am an upstanding citizen of these United States.
拥有一份工作 I have a job,
一个安身立命之所 足以维持生计 a roof over my head. I have sustenance.
说不定哪天你就能读到我的大作 Perhaps I'll let you read my masterpiece someday
纽扣人 也称为 The Button Man, also known as
克里斯托弗·柯柏的自白 The Confessions of Christopher Cobb.
堪称经典 It's classic.
这不是他的故事 This isn't his story.
好吧 其实是他的故事 Well, it is,
却不是由他来讲述 but he is not telling it,
而是我 I am.
我是尼克·弗林 他的儿子 I'm Nick Flynn, his son,
我正努力成为一名作家 and I am sort of trying to be a writer.
怎么说呢 现在还不到时候 I mean, not at this very moment.
此刻我正在努力... At this moment I'm trying to...
起床了 Wake up.
醒醒 Hey, wake up.
成为弗林
在我生命里 父亲从来不曾出现过 All my life, my father has been manifest as an absence.
一个根本不存在 有名无实的人 A non-presence. A name without a body.
他如果不出现呢 What if he doesn't show up?
他总会现身的 He's gonna show up.
你怎么知道 How do you know?
因为如果这次他还不出现 Because if he doesn't show up this time,
我就杀了他 I'm going to kill him.
你上哪儿去杀他呢 How will you find him to kill him?
我有的是办法 I have ways.
他如果不来 我们能吃冰激凌吗 Can we get ice cream if he doesn't show up?
车来了 他来了 Here is the bus. Here he is.
不 不是他 No, that is not him.
他肯定还在后面 He must be in the back.
你想要什么样的冰激凌 What kind of ice cream do you want to get?
巧克力味的 Chocolate.
我知道他总有一天会现身的 Some pan' of me knew he would show up someday.
如果我待在一个地方一直等 If I stayed in one place long enough
他就会找到我的 he would find me,
就像他们教你迷路时所做的一样 like you are taught to do when you are lost.
但若是你们两人都迷路了呢 But what do you do if both of you are lost
你们两人都在原地一直等吗 and you both end up in the same place, waiting?
宝贝 Hey, sweetie.
累死我了 I'm exhausted.
航班还顺利吧 How was your flight?
路上颠个不停 Non-stop turbulence.
尼克 你把烟灰缸放在床边干嘛 Nick, what is the ashtray doing by the bed?
抱歉 Sorry.
口红 Lipstick?
你他妈真是个混球 You are a fucking asshole.
是你说的 我俩没有未来 Look, you are the one who said you didn't see a future for us.
知道为什么吗 这是你的 I wonder why? This is yours!
给你 This is yours.
-这也是你的 -好啦 - And this is yours! - All right.
-还有这本 -别闹了 - And this is yours. - All right.
-我的书 -还有叶芝 - My book. - And Yates.
-这也是叶芝 -够了 - Oh, more Yates. - All right.
你还真是博览群书呢 Wow! You are so well-read.
好了 够了 All right. All right!
镜子我会赔你的 I'll pay for the mirror.
我一找着工作就赔 As soon as I get a job.
对不起 Sorry.
为什么 因为你做人这么失败吗 For what, your complete inadequacy as a human being?
是的 Yes.
你提醒过我的 Well, you warned me.
别担心 你又回来了 Don't worry, you're back.
回到一位大师级作家这里了 Back in the hands of a master storyteller.
去你的吧 Yeah, yeah, go fuck yourself.
我喜欢孩子和小动物 I like kids and small animals.
不喜欢同性恋和黑人 What I don't like is queers and blacks
他们整日整夜地的想着操你 who try and fuck you up the ass all day and all night.
这点稍后再说 But more on that later.
我 一直是一位大师 What I am, always have been, is an artist.
他妈的安静点 Shut the fuck up.
安静 安静 Shut up. Shut up.
别吵了 别吵了 Shut the fuck up! Shut up!
安静点 Shut Up!
我朋友的朋友认识的两个人 A friend of a friend knew a couple of guys
租下了一整栋大楼 who were renting an entire building,
以前这是一家叫极乐时光的脱衣舞夜总会 a former strip joint called "Good Times."
不幸的是 这家夜总会根本没开起来 Unfortunately, the good times were not had by all,
就像三年前 那个在门口被刺死的 like that Harvard student who was found
哈佛大学的学生 stabbed to death in the doorway three years before
我不知道该跟你说什么 I don't know what to tell you.
你得自己去想明白 老兄 That's something you got to figure out, man.
那么 这里哪一点吸引了你呢 So, what appeals to you about living here?
-租金低 -稍等 - Low rent. - Yeah, hold on one second.
你有工作吗 Do you have a job?
没有 我存了些钱 Uh, no. I have some money saved up.
我以前是个电工 I was working as an electrician,
不过现在打算换个工作 but now I'm looking for a newline of work.
电工 An electrician?
你能把这个地方弄成宇宙飞船那样子吗 Can you wire this place up to look like a spaceship?
-埃文 -是的 - Ivan. - Yes.
你对哪一种职业感兴趣呢 And what field of employment are you interested in?
与众不同的 更有意义的 Something different, something more meaningful.
更有意义 是什么意思 "More meaningful," What does that mean?
不知道 I don't know.
那些是脱衣舞娘的名字吗 Are those, like, the names of strippers?
是的 房东的黑手党成员 Yeah. The landlord's Mafia,
联邦调查局把他封了之后 so he just left all this shit the way it was
这些东西就原封不动的留了下来 when the FBI shut him down.
你有家人吗 Any family?
别弄的像审问似的 Stop interrogating the guy.
不好意思 埃文 但是我之前的室友 I'm sorry, Ivan, but my last roommate had
把全家人从柬埔寨接过来 his entire family from Cambodia
睡在了客厅里 sleeping in the living room.
没有 我母亲去世了 我父亲 No, my mom's dead, and my dad,
我十八年没见过他了 所以... I haven't heard from in 18 years, so...
-好极了 -成交 - Perfect. - Done.
你们俩是... So, are you guys like...
-不是 -那就好 - No. No. - Okay.
丹尼斯 你不是说过你们那里在招人吗 So, Denise, didn't you say they were hiring people at your work?
他们老是在招人 They usually are.
太好了 尼克正想找份活儿呢 Good. 'Cause I think Nick here is looking for a job.
-饶了他吧 -你在哪儿工作 - Give him a break, man. - Where do you work?
避难街旅店 听说过吗 Harbor Street Inn. You heard of it?
-没有 -那里是流浪汉收容所 - No. - It's a homeless shelter.
听起来不错 你算是个行善之人了 That sounds intense. So are you like a do-gooder?
不 我是个作恶之人 No, I'm a do-badder,
只不过在避难街工作罢了 but I work at Harbor Street.
为什么说你是个作恶之人 What makes you a do-badder?
我敢打赌 你肯定想知道 I bet you would like to know.
当然 I would.
有时候 就那么几次 Upon occasion, rare occasion, but still,
我会拉个女客 然后开始一段艳遇 I'll pick up a female fare and we will strike up a conversation.
乔纳森 Oh, Jonathan.
乔纳森 Jonathan.
咱们还是实际点吧 Let's be a little realistic here.
好吧 All right.
我们都很享受 不是吗 宝贝儿 Still, we are having fun, aren't we, Buttercup?
当然 Absolutely.
照片上是谁 Who is this?
我的老婆孩子 That is my wife and kid.
你想听那点陈年旧事吗 Will you listen to this shit.
你结婚了 You are married?
离了 都好久了 Divorced, a long time ago.
我最好送你回家了 Well, I had better get you home.
我开着计时器呢 一共是240美元 I left the meter running. That'll be $240.
安静点 Quiet!
别吵了 Quiet!
我都无法思考了 I can't even think any more!
失陪下 Excuse me.
开门 Open Up!
混蛋 Asshole.
我就觉得你就在这儿 I was hoping you'd be here.
为什么 Why is that?
这样我就有熟人了 Well, so I know somebody.
我们不怎么熟吧 We don't exactly know each other, do we?
好像是 I guess not.
我不想谈恋爱 I'm not interested in a relationship.
什么 What?
我不想谈恋爱 I'm not interested in a relationship.
好吧 我能接受 Okay, I can cope.
那就好 Okay.
有你的电话 Phone call.
谁啊 Who is it?
你父亲 Your father.
谁 Who?
你父亲 十八年未见的父亲 Your father, who you supposedly hadn't seen in 18 years.
我是尼克 This is Nick.
是尼古拉斯·弗林吗 Is this Nicholas Flynn?
是的 Yes.
尼古拉斯 我是你父亲乔纳森·弗林 Nicholas, this is your father, Jonathan Flynn.
是吗 It is?
是的 我想问你个事儿 It is. I have a question for you.
你有卡车吗 皮卡车 Do you have a truck? A pickup truck?
事实上 我有 Yeah, as a matter of fact, I do.
我听说了 I heard as much.
听谁说的 From who?
你奶奶 她几年前说起过 Your grandmother, she mentioned it a few years ago.
你还记得你奶奶吧 You do remember your grandmother, don't you?
-记得 -那就好 - I do. - Good.
现在我要你开着皮卡过来 Now I want you to get in your truck and drive over here.
不好意思 你说你是我父亲 I'm sorry, you say you are my father?
是的 That is correct.
我被赶了出来 现在需要你过来 I was evicted and I need you to get over here
帮我搬一下东西 尼古拉斯 and help me move my stuff, Nicholas.
你怎么知道这个号码的 How did you get this number?
信息台 现在仔细听我说 Information. Now listen to me carefully.
我正坐在门后 拿着猎枪 I’m sitting behind a door with a shotgun.
就等着门把手转了 I'm waiting for the knob to turn.
你赶紧过来 Get over here right now.
这算是求救了 That is an appealing offer.
你说对了 You are damn right it is.
东西全是你的 It's all yours.
你是我唯一的继承人 尼古拉斯 You are my sole heir, Nicholas.
我希望把东西都给你 I want you to have everything.
你有笔吗 You have a pen or a pencil?
我要你记下这个地址 Because I want you to write this address down.
我来干什么呢 What am I doing here?
你来干什么 我们来干什么啊 What are you doing here? What are we doing here?
谢谢你们能来 Thanks for coming.
客气 我们就等在这儿 还是... Sure. Should we just wait here? Or do you want us...
谁啊 Who is it?
我是尼克 尼古拉斯 It's Nick. Nicholas.
进来吧 门没锁 进来 Come on in, the door is open. Come in.
给我一分钟就好 I'll be with you in a minute.
谢谢你过来 尼古拉斯 I appreciate you coming over, Nicholas.
我们生来就要帮助他人 We're put on this Earth to help other people.
是 Yeah.
我们生来 We were put on this Earth
就要帮助他人 尼古拉斯 to help other people, Nicholas.
对于我们彼此的损失 我很遗憾 I regret our mutual loss.
我天生是个作家 你也是 I am a born writer, so are you.
你现在就要认识到这一点 Get this in your head at once.
我是个一流的作家 伟大的作家 I am a classic storyteller. A great writer.
我想当作家 I think I want to be a writer.
是吗 Yeah?
爸爸是个作家 对吗 Dad is a writer, right?
你为什么这么说 What makes you think that?
信上写着呢 It says right here.
上面说小说进行地很顺利 It says, "Work on my novel is going well.
我马上就能得诺贝尔奖了 "I shall soon win the Nobel Prize
因为我在小说与诗歌上的成就 "for both storytelling and poetry.
不必害怕 "No fear."
你知道那封信从哪里寄来的吗 You know where that letter was written from?
-监狱 -对 - Prison. - Mmm-hmm.
他为什么又进监狱了 Why is he in prison again?
跨州运输赃款 Interstate transportation of stolen securities.
什么意思 What is that?
他伪造支票 He cashed forged checks.
盗取了成千上万的美金 He stole thousands and thousands of dollars.
你知道这笔钱我们见过多少吗 Do you know how much of that we have seen?
-零蛋 -对了 - Zero. - Zilch.
-一分钱也没有 -没咱们的份 - Zippo. - Nothing.
-啥也没有 -啥也没有 - Nada. - Niente.
你看见我的棒球手套了吗 Have you seen my baseball glove?
要是火烧屁股了 If it were up your ass,
你肯定就能找到了 you would know where it was.
进来吧 Well? Gonna come in?
很高兴见到你 尼古拉斯 Pleasure to see you, Nicholas,
即便是在这种情况下 aside from the circumstances.
什么情况 What are the circumstances?
情况就是 The circumstances are
我和我的混账房东吵了一架 that I had a disagreement with my scum-sucking landlord.
我不知道为什么 I don't know why.
然后他把警察找来了 And so he decided to bring the police into the discussion.
所以现在我不得不搬走 So now I'm forced to move.
搬到哪儿去 Move where?
我还在考虑呢 我可是个很吃香的房客 I'm considering my options. I'm a sought-after house guest.
你知道为什么吗 You know why?
不知道 No.
因为我是个讲故事的高手 Because I'm an excellent raconteur.
不过在我找到新住处以前 But until I find a new place,
我得把所有的东西暂时存放起来 I have to put all my things in storage.
我可不会把枪放在我车里 Hey. So I'm not bringing the gun in my truck.
-什么 -猎枪 - What? - The shotgun.
猎枪 Sho'gun?
是啊 你说你有把猎枪 Uh, yeah. You said you had a shotgun.
猎枪 谁说的 我讨厌枪炮 A shotgun? Who said that? I abhor firearms.
别误会 我可以保护自己 I mean, don't get me wrong, I can defend myself.
让我... Let me just...
-看见这个了吗 -是的 - You see this? - Yes.
我开车或是走路的时候 Anyone messes with me when I'm driving
谁要是敢来找事儿 or walking down the street, whatever.
砰 我就一下子砸他头上 Bamo! Right in the head.
意思就是 我跟你说 It sends a little message, let me tell you.
我想教训那可恶的房东 I'd like to take that scumbag landlord,
把这个塞进他屁眼里 and I'd like to ram it right up his ass.
这个房东 卑鄙的商人兼瘾君子 This landlord, this merchant, this fucking user...
很好 你能先把这个收起来吗 Hey, that is great. Would you mind putting that away?
我想拿这个 I'd like to take this and
-拜托 -塞进他妈的屁眼 - Please? - ram it up his fucking ass,
在里边转几下 插进去 twist it around, pull it down,
把他里边的肠子给捣出来 rip out his innards and fucking pull them out.
你明白了吧 You get the fucking picture.
这是我第一任妻子 乔迪 That was my first wife, Jody.
我知道是谁 她是我母亲 I know who it is. She was my mother.
我知道她是你母亲 I know she was your mother.
她是世上最漂亮的女人 She was the most beautiful woman in the world.
她是我一生的挚爱 She was the love of my life.
她是我真爱之光 She was the light of my love.
如果她还在世 我们就能团聚了 I know if she was still alive today, we'd be together.
真是个悲惨的意外 Such a tragic accident.
什么意外 What accident?
让她韶华早逝的意外 The accident that cut her life short.
那不是意外 她写遗书了 It wasn't an accident. She left a note.
里边提到我了吗 Did it mention me?
没有 No.
你妈妈不擅长写信 Not much of a letter writer, your mother.
好了 尼古拉斯 我们开始吧 All right, Nicholas. Why don't we get started.
把这些东西拿下来 放在盒子里 You can just take all this stuff and throw it in a box.
画要小心点 The paintings be careful of.
特别是这幅和那幅 还有墙上那个 Especially this one and that one, and that one on the wall.
照看好这些东西 它们都很珍贵 Be careful of all this stuff. It's all valuable.
尼古拉斯 这个你收下 Nicholas, I want you to have this.
这是杰克逊·波洛克的原作 This is an original Jackson Pollock.
美国抽象表现主义的先驱 20世纪最有影响力的艺术家之一
他是我朋友 He was a friend.
不 我不能 Oh, no. I couldn't.
我希望你收下 No, I want you to have it.
好吧 谢谢 Okay, thanks.
你还过来搬东西吗 这可是你的东西 Are you going to help move this stuff, since it's yours?
我也想 但是我两腿都有致命的静脉炎 I wish I could, but I suffer from lethal phlebitis in both legs.
拿好这些箱子 里边都是我的手稿 You be careful with those boxes. There's manuscripts.
手稿 Manuscripts.
他们是你朋友吗 Those are your friends?
算是吧 I guess. Yeah.
一个同性恋 一个黑人瘾君子 A homosexual and a black pothead?
祝你好运吧 Well, good luck to you.
我得去工作了 Well, I have to get to work now.
弄完之后麻烦你把门锁上 Do you mind just locking the padlock when you're finished?
好的 等等 你是开出租车的吗 Yeah. Wait. So you drive a taxi?
这样我可以很好的观察 Well, it's an excellent way of learning
各色各样的人 about all different kinds of people.
你的工作是什么 And what is your vocation?
我的工作嘛 My vocation? Uh...
我做过好多工作 I've done lots of different jobs.
我一直以为你会成为一个作家 I always thought you'd end up a writer,
就像你老爸我 like your old man.
其实我也写作 偶尔尝试着写 Actually, I do write. You know, sometimes. I try.
可没有尝试写作这回事 Well, there is no such thing as trying to write.
要么写 要么不写 One writes, or one doesn't.
你得利用所有的机会来锻炼你的文笔 You have to take every opportunity to practice your craft.
好歹你从我这里继承了一些写作的天分 Anyway, I know you have inherited some writing talent from me,
因为我绝对是个伟大的作家 because I am a truly great writer.
我给你看样东西 I'm going to show you something.
我有一封来自维京出版社的信 I have a letter from Viking Press.
你听说过维京出版社吧 You've heard of Viking Press, haven't you?
听过 Yeah.
看看 看看这个词 Look at this. Look at that phrase there.
来稿生动地展现了您的个性 "Your book is a virtuoso display of personality.
遗憾的是 我们还没有 "Unfortunately, its dosage
那么坚强的读者来承受此书的内容 would kill hardier readers than we have here."
生动地展现 这可是维京出版社说的 "Virtuoso display," Viking Press.
今天我很高兴 尼古拉斯 Well, it's been a great pleasure, Nicholas.
你还需要什么吗 除了波洛克的画 You need anything? Aside from the Pollock?
不需要 No.
就这样吧 再见了 All right. Well, au revoir, then.
不客气 You're welcome.
不用谢 Don't mention it.
你父亲真是个极品 Your father's a nightmare.
这是什么 What's that?
是杰克逊·波洛克的画 It's a fucking Jackson Pollock painting.
杰克逊·波洛克 天哪 Jackson Pollock? Jesus!
波洛克签名的时候把名字拼错了吧 Pollock spelled his name wrong when he signed it.
他给了我一件礼物 So then he gives me a gift,
一幅杰克逊·波洛克的画作 a Jackson Pollock painting.
我还傻乎乎的以为是真的 Which, like an asshole, I think is real.
在等了十八年之后 So after 18 years of wondering,
我终于知道父亲是什么人了 here's what I learned about my father.
他是个种族主义者 恐同性恋者 还是个疯子 He's a racist, he's a homophobe, and he's fucking crazy.
你能联系到他吗 要是你想这么做的话 Can you reach him? I mean, if you wanted to?
我觉得我再也不想见到他了 真的 I don't know that I ever want to see him again. Really.
我不知道自己是怎么想的 I don't know how I feel about it.
不清楚自己的感受 I can't really locate what I feel.
所以你就给我打电话了 Is that why you called me?
让我来帮你理理头绪 To help you locate your feelings?
你想离开这里吗 你看起来太美了 Do you want to get out of here? You look beautiful.
别来那一套 我们现在是朋友了 None of that. We're friends now.
我们是朋友 We're friends?
是的 Yeah.
别误会 我喜欢跟你睡觉 但是... I mean, don't get me wrong, I enjoyed sleeping with you, but...
谢谢 Thank you.
我跟你说过我不想谈恋爱 I told you I didn't want a relationship.
所以现在我们只是朋友 So, now we're friends.
好吧 谢谢你告诉我 Okay. Well, thanks for letting me know.
不客气 You're welcome.
你该考虑一下来避难街工作 You should think about working at Harbor Street.
为什么 Why?
我刚来的时候 Well, I was in kind of a fucked state,
精神上一塌糊涂 mentally, when I started there.
反正我就是喜欢在那里工作 Um, yeah, just, I like working there.
说说你那时候的事吧 Tell me about your fucked state.
你还想再来一杯吗 Do you want another one of these?
还好吗 All right?
最近不错吧 Hey, how are you? How's it going?
这工作是谁介绍给你的 How did you hear about this job?
我朋友丹尼斯在这里工作 A friend of mine, Denise, works here.
好的 Okay.
你为什么想为流浪汉工作呢 So what makes you want to work with the homeless?
我不知道 I don't know. Uh...
我是说 我们生来 I mean, we are put on this Earth
就要帮助别人 不是吗 to help other people, right?
有人这样跟我说过 Someone I knew told me that.
谁 Who?
谁 谁也不是 Who? No one. Uh...
我就是看见到处都有无家可归之人 Look, I guess I just see homeless people everywhere.
好像越来越多似的 It seems like there is more and more.
好像是这样 Seems like it.
我就是想找份有意义的工作 I guess I just want a job that, you know, means something.
那种当我下班回家后 Something where I don't
我不会鄙视自己的工作 despise myself when I come home from work.
这么说你鄙视你自己 So you despise yourself?
我也不知道 I don't know.
是的 不是所有人都这样吗 Sure. Doesn't everyone?
我从不鄙视自己 I don't despise myself.
我曾经是这里的客人 I used to be a guest here.
后来成为工作人员 本可以一直住下去 Then I worked here. I had a permanent bed.
但我搬出去了 And then I moved out.
我找了一份建筑的活 成了工头 I got a job in construction, became the foreman.
然后我回到这里 给予他人帮助 Then one day I came back here to give something back.
我这一路经历了很多 So I've come a long way up,
却成过眼云烟 but it's a quick fall down.
所以我已经无法再去厌恶自己 So I really can't afford to hate myself.
你明白我在说什么吗 You know what I'm talking about?
看来你不明白 You don't know what I'm talking about.
没关系的 But that's okay.
我先把你列入替补名单 Tell you what. I can put you on the fill-in list.
如果有需要 我们会打电话给你 If we need somebody to fill in, we'll call.
多谢 Thanks.
为什么他们都叫你船长 Hey, so why do they call you Captain?
因为我就是船长 Because I'm the Captain.
好吧 Okay.
马上把东西拿过来 Just bring it by right now.
回头见 Okay, later.
避难街旅馆来电话了 Hey, they called from Harbor Street Inn.
叫你今晚去上班 They want you to fill in tonight.
今晚 Tonight?
这里的工作人员三教九流都有 There were different types of people who worked there.
有虔诚的信徒 There were the religious types.
我要以耶稣为榜样拯救世人 I want to live my life the way Christ does.
我讨厌我的父母 他们为富不仁 Also, I hate my rich parents.
伙计们 麻烦把这些搬过来 Hey, guys, can you bring those over here?
朋克是一种追求思想解放和反主流的音乐风格
有反叛的朋克族 There were the punks.
先生请登记 我们得送你去诊所 Check in, sir, and we are gonna get you to the clinic.
硬核朋克是朋克摇滚中最强硬最极端的一个变种
这里就像是硬核朋克一样 This place is hardcore.
另外 工资还不错 Plus, the pay is not bad.
下一个 Next.
还有有前科的人 There were the ex-cons.
好了 下一个 All right, next.
有个家伙想用枪打我 So this dude was gonna shoot me, right?
我闪到一边 换了你也一样 So, I turned sideways, 'cause that is what you do.
闪到一边 用胳膊挡了一下 You turn sideways, you take it in the arm.
我闪电般的出手 挡下了子弹 I flex my bicep, I take the bullet.
然后夺过他的手枪 And then I grabbed the gun from this guy,
对准他的猪头 and I'm like bam-bam-bam-bam.
嘣嘣嘣嘣就是四枪 轻松搞定 Right in his fucking head, then it's like click click click.
案发之后 我消失了一阵子 Let me tell you, I had to disappear for a while after that.
好了 把胳膊抬起来 All right, put your arms up.
欢欢以前是个瘾君子 也是个妓女 Joy was an ex-cokehead and a prostitute.
这边请 亲爱的 There you go, honey.
现在对流浪汉来说 她像是母亲一般 Now, she's like a mother to the guys.
不幸的是 几年之后 Unfortunately, in a couple of years,
她重操旧业 吸毒的时候 she will be sitting in a room with a shotgun across her lap,
被人用枪射穿膝盖 back to dealing and smoking crack 24/7.
想要改变还真不容易 It's hard to stay changed.
我最初的工作是在"笼子"里分发床票 I start out working inside the cage handing out bed tickets,
负责保管流浪者的贵重物品 collecting people's valuables and locking them up overnight.
周五是发薪日 不少客人有工作 It's Friday, payday. A lot of the guests have jobs.
有更多的钱装进信封里 There is more money to slip into the envelopes.
走 快点 Let's go. Hey!
空气沉闷污浊 有股汗臭味 The air is thick, stale, smells like sweat.
让开 Back off.
这一天 醉鬼们会更喧嚣 Friday, the drunks are more boisterous.
-走开 老头 -干嘛一直推我 - Move up, old man! - Why you always got to be touching me?
因为你站着不动 Because you are standing still, that's why.
每次排队 你都跟在我屁股后面 Every single day, I get in line, and you're right up my ass.
也许我该去帮帮忙 Maybe I should help.
看来 还不行 Yeah, maybe not. Not yet.
使矛盾升级和化解纠纷之间有一个平衡点 There is a balance between escalating and defusing.
取决于正确的处理时间 Knowing when to step in, and when to back off.
朋友 冷静 Hey, buddy, calm down!
糟糕 Oh, shit.
我还不懂其中的诀窍 I don't know that balance yet.
现在你清楚自己的感受了吧 Well? Are you able to locate your feelings now?
痛死我了 Yeah, this fucking hurts.
马上还会有黑眼圈 You are going to have a good shiner.
你没跟我说这里乱成这样 You didn't tell me this place was such a rush.
来了就会上瘾 It's addictive.
小心点 否则你永远不会离开这里了 Watch out, or you will never leave.
有多少人可重新振作起来 So, how many of these people get back on their feet?
说不上来 I couldn't tell you.
我只知道每一年 But what I do know is a year from now,
这里会有100到150个人死掉 100-150 of the guys who come through here will be dead.
我们会送他们最后一程 去停尸房 We catch them on the way down. Next stop, the morgue.
铁哥们雷 我又来了 Hey. Steady Ray, as ever.
乔纳森 别来无恙 Jonathan, how are you?
我想在你家待一晚 So, I thought I might stay over tonight.
我暂时没有固定的居所 I find myself momentarily between places.
不巧的是 克莱尔的妈妈来了 The thing is, Claire's mom is here.
她要和我们一起住 She's staying with us.
没关系 我可以睡在沙发上 That is okay. I'll sleep on the couch.
不行 她要睡在沙发上 No, that is where she's staying.
客房正在装修 We are renovating the guest room.
让她滚蛋吧 要不就跟我一起睡 Tell her to get the fuck off and let me sleep with her.
她人不错吧 Is she nice?
你见过她吗 Yeah. You met her?
《岳母大人》是蓝调大师欧尼·K·杜的代表歌曲
岳母大人 岳母大人 Mother-in-law, mother-in-law
岳母大人 Mother-in-law
亲爱的 Hey, honey!
轻点声 Shh.
不会是因为我点了圣诞树 I mean, this wasn't because of the old
那件事情吧 burning-of-the-Christmas-tree thing, was it?
不 那都是过去的事情了 No. That's ancient history.
事实上 你得承认这真的很有趣 Exactly, because it was really funny. You got to admit, it was.
不错 是很有趣 Yeah. That was a lot of fun.
好吧 代我向克莱尔问好 Sure, all right. Well, okay, give Claire de Lune my love.
我去杜根家看看 And I'm going to try Dugan.
他总是求我去他家 He is always begging me to come over
免费为他和他那可怜的太太 and provide some free entertainment for
带去一些的乐子 him and his miserable missus.
杜根搬去佛罗里达了 Dugan moved to Florida.
是吗 他为什么搬走呢 He did? Moved to Florida? Why the hell would he do that?
我不知道 可能是天气缘故吧 I don't know, the weather.
原来是这样 Oh, the weather.
看来我只好回自己的豪宅了 Okay, looks like I'm going to head to my suite at the Ritz.
-不好意思 -别这样说 雷 - I'm sorry. - Okay, Ray.
-晚安 -好吧 晚安 - Good night. - All right. Good night.
-保重 -向你可爱的妻子问声好 - Take care. - Give the lovely missus my love.
别荒废写作 Don't forget to write.
我会在监狱里继续的 Yeah, I'll write. In jail.
雷 Ray?
来了 I'm coming.
接下来几个星期我住在出租车里 For the next few weeks I lived out of my cab.
整日整夜地租用着 Renting it 24 hours a day, seven days a week.
这种生活棒极了 It's a wonderful life.
在公交车站上厕所 You shit at the bus station,
基督教青年会是全球性基督教青年社会服务团体
在青年会里洗澡 you shower at the Y.
不过这种生活也怎么轻松 But it's not all fun and games.
每到晚上 总是困得不行 Cabbies get shot in the head every night.
嘣 正中颈部 打中要命的颈静脉 Bam! Right in the jugular. Right in the fucking jugular.
我要插进他们的喉咙 用力撕开 I'll ram it down their throat and rip their insides right out.
快走 Hurry up!
警察说我撞了人 或是什么该死的东西 The police said I hit someone, or some fucking thing.
我还能说什么呢 What can I say to that?
现在我没了驾驶证 出租车 Now, I have no license, no cab,
睡的地方也没了 no place to sleep.
也许我该写本新书 《傻瓜回忆录》 Perhaps I'll start a new book, Memoirs of a Moron!
一个倒霉傻瓜的回忆录 Memoirs of a fucking moron.
"笼子"的工作之后 我开始在房间里工作 After the cage, I work housing.
没有了铁丝网的保护 工作更加刺激 It's more intense. You are not protected behind steel mesh.
拿好杯子 好好洗个澡 Okay, grab a cup, have a good shower.
十分钟后在热屋碰头 Hey, I'll meet you in the hot room in 10 minutes.
好的 如果我没在 Okay. If I'm not there,
你可以拿了衣服自己先开始 just take your clothes off and start without me.
好的 Okay.
热屋里满是汗臭 发酵的味道 The hot room smells of superheated sweat, quick fermented.
打扰一下 Excuse me.
我需要一条裤子 I need a new pair of pants.
没问题 这就给你去拿 No problem. I'll be right back.
尺码怎么判断 Hey, how do I know what size he wears?
问他呗 You ask him.
在避难街工作 你要把每天的事情写成日志 At Harbor Street you write up every day's events in the log,
晚上读给同事们听 and you read off your entry that night.
他又不会咬你 He's not gonna bite.
我利用这个机会练习写作 I take that opportunity to practice.
第十 艾萨克·克莱格从床上掉下来 1O, Isaac Clegg fell out of bed,
床砸在他身上 and the bed fell on him.
酒鬼的皮肤很容易干裂 The skin of a drunk splits open easily,
血液被酒精稀释 出起血来更猛 Their blood flows more freely, thinned out by the booze.
晚上 护士已经下班了 The nurse is gone for the evening,
艾萨克又不愿意去医院 and Isaac is loath to go to the hospital.
我试着给他包扎伤口 I make an attempt to bandage him.
我来给你包扎 可以吗 I'm just gonna wrap this around you. You okay?
第三十 我说服了乔治·D 3O, I was able to convince George D
接受每个月的净身消毒 to sit still for his monthly de-lousing.
我挚爱的家人 My beloved family,
它们吃我的肉 我是它们的王 they beheaded me, their beloved Queen.
我爱它们 他们是我的朋友 I loved them. They were my friends.
乔治身上长满了虱子 Lice thrive so well on George's body
可以看到它们在他身上爬来爬去 that they can be seen crawling over him at 20 paces."
我从不伤害它们 I would never hurt them.
从不杀害它们 I would never kill them.
没事的 伙计 我明白 乔治 Hey, it's okay, man. I understand, George.
但是 它们会杀了你 为什么不杀了他们呢 But, I mean, they beheaded you, didn't they? So why not?
干得好 乔治 This is the right decision, George.
给收容所里的流浪汉身上除身上的虱子 Nothing in the shelter makes me understand my purpose more
使得我更加认识到自己的价值 than to kill bugs off of a homeless man's flesh...
这就对了 Okay. All right.
我们来把你洗干净 Let's get you cleaned up.
给他穿上捐赠和捡来的衣服 ... to dress him well in donated, cast-off clothes,
第二天看到他开心的离世 and to see him the next day laughing beside a burning barrel.
尼克 写得非常好 Okay, Nick. Very expressive.
我喜欢艾萨克不愿去医院的那一段 I like the stuff about Isaac being loath to go to the hospital.
谢谢 Thank you.
我们来听听下一位的记录吧 How about we let the next person read their entry?
凌晨十二点 阅览室有人打架 00 p.m., fight broke out in reading area.
第三十 沃里·G在床上吸烟 3O, Wally G. caught smoking in bed
当然 被没收了 which I confiscated, by the way.
四十一是个幸运数字 Lucky number 41.
你下班后有什么事吗 Hey, what are you up to after work?
没事 Nothing.
谢谢 Thank you.
我们不是普通朋友吗 I thought we were just friends.
你给我闭嘴 Shut up.
这是什么 What's all this?
一堆旧信 Just old letters.
你爸爸写给你的吗 Is this from your father?
他蹲过监狱 He was in jail?
除了撰写他的大作 He passed forged checks
他也会干些伪造支票的勾当 in between writing the great American novel.
不错嘛 Nice.
都是他写的吗 Are these all from your dad?
是的 Yeah.
好像有100来封 There's like a hundred letters in here.
这是你写的吗 This yours?
别看 Don't read that.
"烂醉 我说 "Loaded, I say.
"浪费 酩酊大醉 燃烧 滚蛋 "Wasted, looped, lit, off my ass,
"稀里糊涂 摇摇晃晃 一醉方休 "befuddled, reeling, tanked,
"东倒西歪 酒至微醺 酩酊大醉 "Punch-drunk, mean drunk, maintenance drunk,
"逢酒必干 把酒言欢 借酒浇愁 "Sloppy drunk, happy drunk, weepy drunk,
"烂醉如泥 醉生梦死 "blind drunk, dead drunk,
"醉鬼 大酒鬼" "Serious drinker, hard drinker."
这是什么 What is this?
没什么 我写的诗 都是垃圾 Nothing. Some poetry. It's shit.
"玷污的 醉酒的 破碎的 恍惚的 "Polluted, blitzed, shattered, zonked,
"僵死的 毁灭的 老去的 "Ossified, annihilated, fossilized,
"醉 烂醉 醉醺醺 醉得糊涂 彻底地醉了 "Stinko, blotto, legless, smashed, soaked,
"醉了 枯了 "Screwed, blasted,
"大醉 撕裂 扯碎 麻醉 破坏" "Hammered, tore up, ripped up, ripped, destroyed."
真好玩 Cheerful stuff.
没人会看的 No one will ever read it.
我已经看了 I just did.
快回床上来 Come back to bed.
准备给我什么奖励 What will you give me if I do?
尊敬的总统先生 Dear Mr. President.
人类最需要研究的就是人自己 The proper study of mankind is man.
奥特加·伊·加塞特是二十世纪西班牙最伟大的思想家之一
奥特加·伊·加塞特把天才定义为 Ortega y Gasset defined
有能力创造就业的人 genius as the ability to invent one's occupation.
是一个作家 诗人 讲故事的人 I am a writer, a poet, a storyteller.
图书馆将在十分钟后关闭 The library will be closing in 10 minutes.
如果当前约束了未来的希望 If the present holds any promise of the years ahead,
美国就只能指望以后世代 the United States can look forward to many generations of
连自己的名字都不会写的执政者们 executives unable to spell their names correctly.
落款 乔纳森·R·弗林 Yours, as ever, Jonathan R. Flynn.
别动 这是我的私人财物 大猩猩 Give me that. That's my personal property, you ape.
谢谢 Thank you.
今晚 我要打理我业余的银行业务 Tonight, I'm doing a little after-hours banking.
我要存七十五万 I'm depositing a check for $750,000,
这是我的小说《纽扣人》的预付款 an advance for my novel The Button Man.
这是一部传世经典 It's classic.
有人在拍一部关于我的电影 They're making a movie, a movie of my life.
你说什么 Excuse me?
有人在拍电影 They're making a movie.
就在墙后面 Someone, behind the wall.
是吗 They are?
拍你的故事 真是见鬼了 Who in living hell would want to make a movie about your life?
这部电影肯定又臭又长 没什么看头 That would be one boring, redundant, piece of shit movie.
营业时间
给你 Here you go.
你得到外面去吃 埃里克 You have to take it outside, Eric.
真是个惊喜 谢谢 Oh, what a pleasant surprise. Thank you.
不客气 You're welcome.
新一天的曙光 Dawn of a new day.
我喜欢 I like that.
我要为你写一首诗 潼恩 I'm going to write a poem about you, Dawn.
你太贴心了 You are too sweet.
-干杯 -干杯 - Cheers. - Cheers.
黎明 破晓 Dawn. Sawn...
他曾见过喝醉的流浪汉睡在地上 He's seen this before. Bums sprawled out from drinking.
但他自己却从未立于排风口之上 But he has never actually stood over the blowers,
让热气渗入到他的衣服里 let the hot air seep into his clothes.
这是从图书馆排出来的热气 The air is sucked out of the library.
再冷的夜晚 这里也是温暖的 Even on the coldest nights there is too much heat inside.
排风区就像另一个监狱 It's another prison, these blowers.
你一旦躺下 就舍不得离开 Because once you have landed, you can't leave.
因为离开就意味着刺骨的寒冷 Because one step off the blower is cold, hypothermia cold,
因为此时你的身体已经被蒸汽浸湿 now that you are sodden with steam.
排风口就像一间没有墙壁的暖房 The blower is a room of heat with no walls.
我的父亲成了一个隐形人 My father is an invisible man,
住在隐形的房间里 in an invisible room,
生活子隐形的城市中 in the invisible city.
十分感谢您的帮助 先生 I really appreciate the help, sir.
-叫我卡洛斯好了 -好的 卡洛斯 - Call me Carlos. - Okay. Carlos.
杰里 你无家可归有几天了 So, Jerry, how many nights have you been homeless?
就一晚 和别人老婆一起的倒霉夜晚 Just one night. One bad night with the wife, boy.
一个倒霉的晚上就足够了 That is all it takes, one bad night.
你说得没错 You got that right.
你好 尼克 What is up, Nick?
新人不能带酒精和武器进来 For the new guys, no bottles or weapons, okay?
好了 你可以了 All right, you're good.
先生 请伸开双臂 谢谢 Stretch your arms out for me, sir. Please? Thank you.
好了 走吧 All right. Step up.
我想要间房过夜 I'd like a room for the evening.
你想要张床 You want a bed?
那样也可以 That'll do for now.
好一个惊喜 Well, this is a pleasant surprise.
你现在在这里工作 So, you're employed here now?
是的 我在这里工作 Yes, I'm employed here.
很好 我同意 我们生来就要帮助别人 Well, I approve. We are put on this Earth to help other people.
你肯定正在搜集绝佳的写作素材 You must be gathering some excellent material.
你还发不发床票啊 Hey. You giving out tickets, or what?
非常感谢 Many thanks.
要是有个独立房间的话 就更棒了 And if a private room does open up, I'd be grateful.
怎么了 Hey, what's up?
我爸爸在这里 My father is here.
-什么 -我爸爸来这里了 - What? - My father, he's here.
他今晚要住在这里 他是这里的客人 He's staying here, he is a guest tonight.
天哪 Jesus.
不会吧 Oh, shit.
你爸爸在这里借宿 你亲生父亲 Your dad is sleeping here. Your own father.
尼克 伙计 你是我见过最不幸的人 Nick, man, you are the unluckiest guy I know.
谢了 卡洛斯 拜托你不要到处乱说 Thanks, Carlos. Just keep it to yourself, man. Please?
没问题 No worries.
尼克 今晚需要回家休息下吗 Hey, Nick. You feel like going home tonight?
不 为什么 No. Why?
因为你爸爸在这里 Because your father is here.
看来你已经听说了 So you heard about that.
是的 Yeah.
还有谁知道 Who else knows?
我们都会帮助你的 伙计 We are with you, man.
该死的卡洛斯 Fucking Carlos.
你今晚可以不用上班 Maybe you could take the night off.
我可以找个替补 You know, I can get a fill-in.
不 No.
这是我的工作 我哪儿也不去 It's my job. I work here.
走 Let's go.
跟我来 Come with me.
下铺 Bottom bunk.
尼古拉斯 Nicholas.
风景不错 Interesting view.
我还以为你住在朋友家里 I thought you were staying at a friend's place?
出现了一些小插曲 A couple of things fell through.
我在出租车里住了一阵子 I was bunking in my cab for a while,
后来又不行了 but that is no longer possible.
只好露宿街头 So I have been sleeping alfresco.
街头 露宿 多久了 Alfresco? You mean outside? For how long?
三个星期左右 Three weeks or so.
反应别这么大 我倒觉得是个机会 Don't look so grave. This is a great opportunity for me.
什么机会 What opportunity?
冻死的机会吗 The opportunity to freeze to death?
观察另一个世界生活的机会 The opportunity to see how the other half lives.
穷人 社会底层的人 The poor, the downtrodden.
我跟你一样 都在搜集素材 I'm doing the same thing here as you are, gathering material.
不 我没有 这就是我的生活 No, I'm not gathering material. This is my life.
生活就是搜集素材 Life is gathering material.
我喜欢这句 帮我记一下 I like that. Help me remember that.
他们甚至不让我带笔进来 They won't even let me bring a goddamned pen up here.
你难道不能帮我找支笔 Can't you do anything about that?
-不行 -你在这里就没什么特权吗 - No. - Don't you have any clout around here?
没有 Sorry.
总之 我的写作水准日臻完美 Well, anyway, my writing is going extremely well, by the by.
作品已经修订到第三十七章了 I'm already almost done with my revisions to Chapter 37.
有机会给你看看 传世经典啊 Perhaps I'll let you read it someday. It's classic.
-你不能在这里住下去 -为什么 - Okay, look, you can't stay here. - Why not?
因为我在这里上班 Because I work here.
别担心 逗留只是暂时的 Well, don't worry. This is only a very temporary situation.
我一点也不想打扰你的生活 I don't want to disrupt your life in the least.
有个朋友一直求我搬去佛罗里达 I have a friend of mine who's begging me to move down to Florida.
那里有地方住 还有工作等着我 He has a guest house and a job there for me.
佛罗里达 听起来很不错 Okay. Florida, that sounds great.
而在此期间 In the meantime,
我们可以借此机会 this is an excellent opportunity for
弥补我们逝去的日子 you and I to make up for lost time.
命运之神给了我们短暂相聚的时光 Destiny has brought us together for one fleeting moment.
别不把它当回事 Let us not spit in its eye.
再次谢谢你 伙计 Thank you again, man.
要是这破玩意不行 就告诉我 And you know, let me know if that shit don't work out.
告诉我 好吗 Let me know, all right?
好的 下次见 Okay. We'll see you.
好的 All right.
你可以带他来这里住几天 I mean, you could ask him to stay here for a few days.
不行 No, he can't.
我都不知道佛罗里达是不是真的 I don't even know if the Florida thing is real.
希望是真的 我是为你好 I hope so, for your sake.
只有大麻吗 Just weed, right?
你说什么 Excuse me?
你只卖大麻 是吗 You're only selling weed, right?
没错 Yeah, just weed.
我的意思是 他终归是你爸爸 I'm just saying, he's your father.
我的爸爸在我心中 I've had father figures.
尼克 注意看球 All right, Nick! Keep your eye on the ball.
他们全都燃起来了 They were all burned up.
身体的变化真是令人惊奇 尼克 It's amazing what can happen to the human body, Nick.
该死的 你给他看什么东西 Hey! What the hell are you showing him?
-你好 甜心 -搞什么 特拉维斯 - Hey, sweetie. - What the fuck, Travis?
把枪收起来 我有话跟你说 Pick that up! Come on, I want to talk to you.
作为驾驶员他的年纪还太小 I thought he was a little young to be driving a car.
你会没命的 进屋去 You could have killed yourself. Get inside!
太谢谢你了 Thank you very much.
不客气 You're welcome.
-祝你愉快 -你也是 - Have a good day. -You, too.
在我的成长中 妈妈交过许多不同的男友 My mom had a lot of different boyfriends, growing up.
来 伙计 好球 Come on, buddy. Good job.
但爸爸从未出现 But I never had a father.
幸好还有妈妈 Luckily, I had a mother.
在跟谁玩球呢 Hey, who you playing ball with?
没人 自个儿玩 Nobody. Myself.
戴上手套陪我玩 Get your mitt.
宝贝 妈妈累坏了 Honey, I'm exhausted.
知道了 Okay.
好吧 All right.
我先去戴手套 接球 Let me get my mitt. Heads up!
-好球 -谢谢 - Good one. - Thanks.
-马上就来 -好的 - I'll be right back. - Okay.
-你没听我说话 -我在听 - You are not listening to me. - I'm listening.
他偷了我三十块钱 He stole $30 from me!
我知道了 尼克 I understand that. Hey, Nick!
乔纳森叫我把信给你 伙计 Jonathan asked me to give this letter to you, man.
所以他算是个有名的作家吗 So he's some kind of famous writer?
是的 这就是他住在避难街的原因 Yeah, that's why he's staying at Harbor Street.
亲爱的尼克 非常感谢你热情的款待 Dear Nick, many deep thanks for your warm welcome.
不得不说你看起来很焦虑 I must say you seemed anxious.
当然 作家 尤其是诗人 Of course, writers, especially poets,
更有疯狂的倾向 are particularly prone to madness.
宝贝儿 Hey, babe.
好了 Okay.
创造力和躁郁症之间 There exists a striking association
有着惊人的联系 between creativity and manic depression.
唯一重要的是坚持工作 The only important thing, though, is to simply do the work.
不是剧痛 而是隐隐作痛 It's not a sharp pain, it's a dull pain.
我已经两天没吃东西了 I haven't eaten in two days.
直接从后面穿过去 下楼梯 Hey, straight through the back, down the stairs.
这里大部分的人 Most of these guys here are
都是游手好闲的乞丐或是搞基的 a bunch of fucking deadbeat panhandlers and pederasts.
这些变态 These perverts,
要是在联邦监狱 他们早完蛋了 they wouldn't last a second in federal prison.
他们都是同性恋 They are all homosexuals.
我鄙视同性恋 他们也鄙视我 I despise homosexuals, and they despise me.
我知道我在说什么 我实话实说 I know what I'm talking about. I talk the straight talk.
我在联邦监狱可不是白待的 I wasn't locked up in federal prison with choirboys,
-那是肯定的 -下一个 - that's for sure. - Next, please.
北卡罗来纳警察局 照片提醒
谢谢 Thank you.
看见了吗 See this?
永远不要当作家 Don't ever become a writer.
向右转弯 沿着走廊走 Just around the corner to the right, follow the hallway.
然后就知道怎么走了 You know where to go.
天哪 你怎么了 Jesus. Hey, what happened to you?
我没事 I'm fine.
真没事吗 你应该去诊所看看 You're fine? You should get to the clinic.
你应该去看看那几个混蛋 这不算什么 You should see the other cocksuckers. This is nothing.
对了 我有个小礼物要给你 By the way, I have a little gift for you.
作家之间的馈赠 From one writer to another.
这里有裁缝吗 Is there a tailor here?
没有 No.
我需要一件外套 I'm going to need a new coat.
好的 Okay.
好吧 我这次不过去了 All right, so I won't be there.
下次过去 行吗 But I'll get there next time, okay?
好 All right.
你不只是卖大麻吧 You are not just selling weed, right?
小心点 小心我的东西 Watch your hands. Watch your hands.
为什么一个如此伟大的作家 Why should a truly great writer
却要受到这样的侮辱 be subjected to these fucking indignities?
有感觉了 There we go.
你在做什么 这是我的东西 What are you doing'? That's my property.
你出去吧 Come on, get out of here.
那是我的东西 我的财产 That's my property, That's my property
该死的同性恋 Fucking homo.
冷静 你冷静一下 Calm down. Calm down, now.
我要改变这个像粪坑一样的地方 I'm going to transform this cesspool of a world.
我要用文字来改变它 I'm going to transform it with a fucking word!
你知道的 他不会去别的地方了 You know, he is not going anywhere.
已经好几个礼拜了 It's been weeks.
那你建议我怎么做 What do you suggest I do about it?
换个工作吗 Get a job somewhere else?
你想给我吹箫吗 You want to do some blow?
我讨厌吹箫 I despise blow.
把人变得很恶心 Turns people into fucking scumbags.
要是你想你自己来吧 But you go ahead if you want to.
十二点半 弗洛伊德·珀金斯作了争吵报告 12:30, Floyd Perkins reports physical altercation.
报告完成 Report completed.
凌晨三点换班 布赖恩获批登记离开 3:00 a.m., shift change. Brian gets permission to sign out.
晚上七点 乔恩·弗林想私带酒精进来 7:00 p.m., Jon Flynn was caught
被发现 trying to smuggle a bottle in tonight.
刚开始他满口脏话 At first he was abusive,
冷静下来后 给了他一个警告 but he calmed down and was given a warning.
他晚上没被赶出去吗 He wasn't put out for the night?
外面是很冷的 伙计 It's cold out there, man.
他叫我给你这封信 He asked me to give a letter to you.
尼克 昨晚在避难街我一直在想 Nick, I thought last evening at Harbor Street,
我想等到晚上八点 waiting for 8:00 p.m. to come.
我想要是你美丽的母亲还活着 I thought if your very beautiful mother were alive,
如果她可以看到这样的场景 and if she could somehow see this scene,
同样是在避难街的庇护所 her son at work and his father a resident
儿子在工作 而他的父亲却住在里 at Harbor Street shelter for the homeless.
失败 悲伤 挫败 在生命这场伟大的游戏里 The beaten, the sad, the losers in life's great game.
乔迪看见这个可怕的场景 Jody would have laughed loudly
一定会大声笑出来 at the entire macabre scene.
她是这世界上最美丽的女人 She was the most beautiful woman in the world.
她是我一生的挚爱 She was the love of my life.
我的真爱之光 The light of my love.
要是她今天还在 她一定会和我团聚 If she were here today, she would be with me now.
我的脸 What happened
怎么了 to my face?
我才28岁 I'm only 28 years old.
为什么我是这幅样子 Why do I look like this?
-打扰一下 -我这是怎么了 - Excuse me? - What happened to me?
发生什么了 你对我做了什么 What happened! What have you done to me?
你对我做了什么 What have you done to me?
他不停得对我大叫 说他才28岁 He kept shouting at me that he was 28 years old,
这确实把我吓坏了 我... and it just... it kind of freaked me out, and I just...
你看什么 What are you looking at?
没什么 Nothing.
对不起 I'm sorry.
没什么好对不起的 对不起什么 Don't be sorry. Sorry for what?
因为你被吓坏了吗 That it freaked you out?
没什么大不了的 It's nothing.
等到你待几个月再说吧 Wait until you have been here a few months.
放松点 尼克 别激动 Easy, Nick. Take it easy.
我很放松 I am taking it easy.
要谈的不是我 This isn't me we are talking about.
是的 No, it's not.
继续说 Go ahead.
十一点十五分 11:15,
健身房多余的桌椅都收拾好了 tables and chairs put away in the gym from overflow.
你读看了我上一封信了吗 Did you read my last letter?
看了 Yes.
写得不错 是吗 Beautifully written, wasn't it?
别再给我写信说我那见鬼的妈妈了 Don't write to me about my fucking mother.
你见鬼的妈妈 Your fucking mother?
你见鬼的妈妈 你竟敢这么说她 Your fucking mother? How dare you refer to her that way.
你竟敢这么跟我说 How dare you say, "how dare you" to me.
让我再说清楚一点 Well, let me rephrase it.
别他妈再给我写信说我的妈妈了 Don't fucking write to me about my mother.
你说这种脏话 只会让你看起来很幼稚 It only makes you sound childish using profanity like that.
你不必用这种姿态跟我说话 Sorry, you don't get to patronize me.
知道吗 Okay?
你不用假装扮演我的父亲 You don't get to pretend to be my father
你也不要再写我妈妈 and you don't get to write about my mother.
直说吧 不要再给我写信了 In fact, stop writing me at all.
别再给我写信了 Stop writing me letters.
你应该保存好这些信 You should save them.
总有一天它们会很值钱的 They'll be worth money someday.
事实上我是存了 I have saved them, actually.
我已经有一百多封了 够了 I have over 100. That's enough.
你存起来了 很好 You saved them. Good.
你又把酒带进来了 以后不准你进来 You bring liquor in here again, you are banned.
我的话说完了 End of story.
伊诺豆豆跟我说你染上毒品了 Eano the Beano tells me you are into drugs.
谁又是他妈的伊诺豆豆 Who the fuck is Eano the Beano?
他怎么会知道 How would he know that?
谁都知道 已经传开了 Everybody knows, the word is out.
要真是这样 祝你好运了 You know, if so, good luck to you.
不过别浪费了你的才华 But don't waste your talent.
我没有什么才华 I don't have any talent.
我才不信呢 I find that hard to believe.
为什么 因为你有不可思议的才华吗 Why? Because you're so incredibly talented?
是的 Yes.
好吧 你的才华呢 Okay, so where is it?
你的那些杰作 The masterpiece.
你藏在哪里了 Where are you hiding it?
我能读读吗 你到底有没有写过 Can I read it? Does it even exist?
你活着吗 尼古拉斯·弗林 Do you exist, Nicholas Flynn?
你到底知不知道 Do you even know?
我 乔纳森·弗林 还活着 I, Jonathan Flynn, exist!
我深深地知道 I know that much.
乔纳森·弗林活着 Jonathan Flynn exists!
闭上你的臭嘴 Shut the fuck up!
你他妈的给我闭嘴 You shut the fuck up,
要不我儿子把你赶出去 or my son will evict you!
我要你离开这里 I want you to leave here.
找个别的地方 Find some fucking place,
那里会有不怕死的醉鬼会收留你 some old drinking buddy who is suicidal enough to take you in.
我可是个很吃香的房客 I'm a sought-after house guest.
是啊 你可是讲故事的高手 是吗 Yeah, because you're an excellent raconteur. Right?
-是的 -晚安 - Yes! - Good night!
记住 尼古拉斯 Remember something, Nicholas.
你就是我 You are me!
你就是我 你是我生的 You are me! I made you!
你就是我 You are me!
我不是你 我和你不一样 I am not you! I am not you!
-你就是我 -滚去佛罗里达 - Yes, you are! - Go to Florida!
你就是我 You are me!
他妈的闭嘴 都他妈给我闭嘴 Shut the fuck up! Everybody, shut the fuck up!
晚安 Night.
我申请去外联车上帮忙 I asked to fill in on the outreach van.
收容所里我再也待不下去了 I can't stand to be in the shelter
我的醉鬼老爸会随时出现 where my drunken jack-in-the-box can appear at any moment.
你就是那个父亲住在这里的人吗 Hey, you are the guy whose father is a guest here, aren't you?
不 那个人就是个酒鬼 No. That guy is just a drunk.
他是个骗子 跟我一点关系都没有 A con man, he has nothing to do with me.
是的 当然跟你没关系 Yeah. No, of course not.
好了 准备好了 Okay, we're ready.
出发吧 Okay.
工作时间是晚上九点到早上五点 The hours are 9:00 at night until 5:00 in the morning.
我要给你一个三明治 Hi, I got a sandwich for you.
打扰一下 先生 很抱歉把你吵醒 Hey, excuse me, sir, sorry to wake you.
给你三明治 I got a sandwich here.
你想去屋里面吗 You want to get inside?
对于一个避难者提出共享一瓶除臭剂 Jonathan Flynn responded to a
的要求 乔纳森·弗林 guest's request that he share a can of deodorant
进行了激烈的口头攻击 with an intense verbal assault towards
并且涉及到种族和性取向 the other guest on racial and sexual themes.
弗林先生不理会我们的劝阻 Mr. Flynn would not respond to intervention.
他的言辞反而更加激烈 In fact, he accelerated his verbal assault.
你还好吗 Are you okay?
我没事 Yeah.
乔纳森今晚有点失控了 Jonathan's a little out of control tonight.
办公室人员 克里斯 盖布里埃尔和布赖恩 The SPO, Chris, Gabriel, and Brian,
陪同裹着床单的弗林先生来到棕色大厅 escorted Mr. Flynn to the brown lobby wrapped in a sheet,
因为他拒绝穿上衣服 as he had refused to dress himself."
...我的想象力 《克里斯托弗·柯柏的自白》 ... my vision, The Confessions of Christopher Cobb.
-父亲咆哮着 -文字是世界的起源 - My father rants - In the beginning was the word.
塞林格 吐温 Salinger, Twain...
尿在地上也没人注意 piss on the floor unnoticed.
乔纳森·罗宾森·弗林 Jonathan Robinson Flynn.
我生来就要帮助别人 I was brought into this world to help other people.
无人过问 Ignored.
我生来就是要 I was brought into this world
完成经典之作 我已经完成了 to write my masterpiece, and it's written!
我们都需要编个故事 We all need to create the story
让我们的生命更有意义 that will make sense of our lives.
我站在祭司后面 捧着他的长袍 I stood behind the priest and held his robe
让我们的生活更有意义 make sense of our daily tasks.
他把圣饼放在每个人的舌头上 as he put the host on each tongue.
做弥撒时牧师会把圣饼放在每个教徒的舌头上
所有小女孩排成一排 伸出舌头 All the little girls lined up. Their tongues out.
然而每个晚上 Yet each night,
这些疑惑又来纠缠着他 the doubts return, howling through him.
去你妈的 Suck-o my cock-o!
你 你 你的信仰呢 You! You! Where is your faith?
你的信仰呢 没有信仰你什么也不是 Where is your faith? Without faith you are nothing!
你什么也不是 You are nothing!
一无是处 Nothing!
你什么也不是 You are nothing!
尼克 Nick.
我要出去了 I'm heading out.
好啊 Okay.
为什么 Why?
因为你醉了 我明天还要工作 Because you are drunk and I have to work tomorrow.
你也要工作 So do you.
我没醉 I'm not drunk.
你不去我那里过夜吗 You're not going to stay over?
我要回家了 I'm going home.
我想 发生了这样的事情 I think, after what happened today,
你不应该再喝酒了 maybe you shouldn't be drinking.
什么事情 What happened today?
投票 The vote.
乔恩经常在这里惹麻烦 Jon has created problems in housing.
他的情况没有一点好转 He is not getting any better.
只会越来越糟 He is only getting worse.
我想是时候投票决定他的去留了 I think it's time that we vote on whether to bar him.
我觉得我们不应该让他离开 I'm sorry, I don't think we should bar Jonathan.
我同意 I agree.
我们投票来决定 We will vote on it.
哪一天不遇到倒霉事呢 Well, what day isn't fucked up?
是吧 Right?
你想走吗 Do you want to get out of here?
在我家过夜 Sleep at my place?
不了 Uh, no.
你去吧 我们明天见 You go ahead. I will see you tomorrow.
-好吗 -好吧 - Okay? - All right.
同意让乔纳森继续留下来的请投票 Who votes to let Jonathan continue to stay here?
外面冷的要死 It's freezing outside.
我们不能把他留在外面 We can't just put him out there.
尼克 Nick.
怎么了 Yeah?
我觉得你需要帮助 I think you need to get some help.
什么 What?
你需要别人的帮助 You need some help.
需要帮忙吗 Need help?
-什么 -要帮忙吗 - What? - Need help?
不 这又不是你朋友弄脏的 Nah, it wasn't your friends who trashed the place.
你看见我的笔记本了吗 Have you seen my notebook?
-没有 -该死的 - No. - Fuck.
我要交作业了 I got to hand in an assignment.
要是你找到了跟我说一下好吗 Will you let me know if you find it?
要是火烧屁股了 If it were up your ass...
我肯定就能找到了 I'd know where it was.
让我来点 Can I have a hit?
-吸过纯的吗 -没有 - Smoke crack before? - No.
那就别吸 我三天没离过这东西了 Don't. I haven't left the pipe for three days.
尼克 我看了你的小故事 Nick, I read your short story.
抱歉 我没想过干涉你的隐私 I'm sorry I read it, I don't mean to intrude on your privacy.
我得说 你总是那么敏感 I have to tell you, you have always been so perceptive,
从小就是这样 since you were a child.
妈妈 Mom?
怎么了 What's wrong?
-你想他了吗 -什么 - Do you miss him? - What?
没有 当然没有 No. Of course not.
唯一我牵挂的人就坐在这里 The only person I give a damn about is sitting right here.
那你为什么要哭 So then why are you crying?
我没有 I'm not.
我没哭 I'm not crying.
你还要吃吗 Are you going to finish that?
这个吗 This?
冰激凌吗 This ice cream?
我还要吃它吗 Am I going to eat it?
我不吃了 No.
谢谢 Thanks.
我去了沙滩 I went to the beach,
但我没勇气跳进海里 but I was unable to throw myself in the ocean.
我尽力了 I did the best I could.
我试着打理好一切 I tried to hold it all together.
我爱你 I love you
我爱我爸爸 and I love my dad.
你可以进去了 Come on, you're good.
直接上楼梯 Right up the steps.
好了 乔纳森 All right, Jonathan,
你不能进来 他们不让你进来 you can't come in here. You have been banned.
不让我进去 I've been banned?
是的 两个星期都不能进来 Yes, for two months.
谁不让我进去 Who banned me?
这不重要 你不能进来 It doesn't matter, you have been banned.
我不能进去 I have been banned?
是的 你不能进去 Yes, you have been banned.
我儿子知道这件事吗 Does my son know about this?
他知道 Yes, he knows about it.
他在哪儿 Where is he?
这不重要 你必须离开 It doesn't matter, you have to go.
-杀父凶手 你在哪里 -请你离开 - Father murderer, where are you? - I need you to leave.
-尼古拉斯 你在哪里 -走吧 - Nicholas! Where are you? - Come on.
你这个杀父凶手 Father murderer!
凶手 你在哪里 Father murderer! Where are you?
-伙计 让让 -你给我出来 - Come on, guys, clear out. - Come out!
出来面对我 Come out and face me!
你在做什么 你做什么 杀父凶手 What are you doing? What are you doing? Father murderer!
-乔纳森 -快出来 给我出来 - Jonathan. - Come out! Come out!
你躲在哪里 躲在小衣橱里 Where are you hiding? In some little closet,
喝你妈妈的奶 杀父凶手 sucking your mama's tit, father murderer?
我就应该打飞机 I could have jerked... I could have jerked off
把你冲进厕所里去 and flushed you down the toilet.
你这个凶手 出来面对我 Father murderer, come out and face me!
出去 Outside!
面对我 你这个凶手 Face me, you father murderer!
出来面对我 Face me!
出去 伙计 Out the door, man!
听着 尼克 Look, Nick.
我们结束了 We're done.
-你说什么 -我们结束了 - Excuse me? - We're done.
顺便说一句 你看起来糟透了 You look really fucked up, by the way.
我不想让船长看见你这样 I wouldn't let Captain see you like that.
等一下 Wait. Wait a minute.
等等 别说完就走啊 Wait, don't just say that and walk away.
跟我说清楚 Talk to me.
我的弟弟是个瘾君子 I had a brother who was an addict,
我的小弟弟 my baby brother.
你从来没跟我说过 You never told me that.
所以我不能再跟它扯上关系了 So, I can't be around it.
再也不要 Not again.
听着 我不是... Look, I'm not...
你不是吗 You're not?
你不是什么 You're not what?
不是我父亲 Not my father.
你认为我跟我父亲一样吗 Do you think I'm my father?
我不在乎 I don't care.
我要去工作了 I have to go to work.
那你弟弟现在好了吗 Hey, so is your brother okay now?
再见了 尼克 Goodbye, Nick.
如果说这世上还有我不能忍受的 If there is one thing I can't stomach,
那就只有自怨自艾 it's self-pity.
你 还有你 You, and you over there.
我替奴隶贩子工作 I work for the slave traders.
拿好你的退款 Get your rapid refund.
我去做人体广告牌 I'm a human billboard.
拿好你该死的退款 Get your fucking rapid refund.
我去卖血 我是O型血 I sell my blood, type O.
我三天没吃东西了 I haven't eaten in three days.
就这样吧 And so it goes.
稀有血 Valuable blood.
外面寒风彻骨冻死人 It's frostbite fucking cold out here.
我左脚的脚趾快没知觉了 I'm losing my left toes
因为我晚上没脱鞋 due to not taking my shoes off at night.
这些都写在书里了 It's all going in the book.
我的大作 傻瓜回忆录 My masterpiece, Memoirs of a Moron.
我们现在是在里面还是外面 Are we inside now, or out?
根本没有里外之分 There is no inside, no outside.
我得去上厕所 I have to go to the bathroom.
没有包围和被包围之分 No container, no contained.
怎么样 老家伙 What's up, old man?
没有生命的迹象 No birth.
你在喝什么 什么好东西 What you drinking, anything good?
给我留了吗 Got anything for me?
怎么了 怎么了 What? What?
你觉得自己很了不起吗 过来 You think you are so fucking tough, huh? Come here!
也没有死亡的阴影 No death.
这是一个该死的迷 It's a frigging riddle.
大家好 我叫乔伊 我是个瘾君子 Hey, welcome. My name is Joey, and I'm an addict.
你好 乔伊 Hi, there. Hey, Joey.
我很高兴见到大家 It's good to see everybody here today.
真高兴看到这么多新面孔 And it's really good I'm seeing a number of new faces.
有四五个左右 Actually about four or five of you.
看到有新人进来是好事 It's always good to see new people coming into the room.
现在 我想让你们知道 At this time, I'd like to let you know
这里有免费的咖啡和饼干 that we do have free coffee and cookies over there.
我可以保证这些饼干很好吃 And I can testify about the goodness of the cookies.
是我自己做的 很不错的 I baked them myself, they are fantastic.
此时此刻 如果 At this time, if you have something
你想要说些什么 maybe that you want to talk about,
有想要一吐为快的 something you want to get off your chest,
就举手说吧 我们很乐意倾听 go ahead and raise your hand. We would love to hear from you.
我第一次吸毒是十一岁的时候 I was 11 when I got high for the first time,
就像是找到了家的感觉 and it felt like I was home.
有一天早上我在巴黎醒过来 Well, I woke up one morning in Paris
我想了很久才明白我身在巴黎 It took me a while to figure out that I was in Paris.
我完全忘了头天晚上 And I had completely forgotten that I had
自己开了一架载满人的747飞机 flown a 747 full of people the night before.
我出院不到三个星期 I was out of the hospital no more than three weeks.
我和我妈妈住在一起 And I stayed over my mother's house.
有一天我再也受不了了 I couldn't take it any more.
把手往打火机油里一泡 点着了 I doused my hand with lighter fluid and lit it on fire
就为能弄到点吗啡 just to get the morphine.
想想看 Go figure.
我前几天看到你老爹了 I saw your father the other day.
他看起来不太好 He didn't look so good.
你认识我父亲吗 You know my father?
想不认识他都难 He is a hard guy not to know.
谢谢 Thank you.
你老爹看起来不太好 Your old man doesn't look good.
得有人给他找个容身之所 Someone should get him inside.
你也应该找个容身之所 Well, you should get inside.
我们可以给你提供住处 We can get you in somewhere.
他在停车场睡觉 He sleeps in the parking garage, right?
巴罗的停车场 Barlow's garage?
我不知道 Don't know.
有一天巴罗和罗恩狠揍了他一顿 The other day Barlow and Ron were giving him a hard time.
巴罗杀过人 在沃波尔关了十六年 Barlow killed a guy, 16 years in Walpole.
他们不该让他出来 They shouldn't have let him out.
像他那样的人 A guy like that.
巴罗和罗恩把你老爹引到楼上 Barlow and Ron lure your old man upstairs...
老兄 Hey, buddy.
一直到楼顶 ... to the top floor.
咱们喝一杯吧 Let's have a drink.
要不要跟我们喝一杯 You want to have a drink with us?
说他们有酒 Said they have a bottle.
他们到楼顶之后 When they get to the top,
抓住他把他倒挂在楼顶边上 they grab him and hold him over the edge, upside down.
我警告过你不要再到这来 I told you not to come around here no more.
这是巴罗的地盘 This is Barlow's garage.
是我的地盘 混蛋 This is my garage, bitch!
他没把他扔下去吗 He didn't drop him?
他们说再有下次 Said next time
就把他扔下去 he'll drop him.
巴罗简直就是个疯子 He's a freaking psycho, Barlow.
经理九点十五就往外轰人 The manager kicks you out of this place at 9:15.
门上明明写着九点半关门 The sign on the door says it doesn't close until 9:30.
他怎么能这样 How can he do that?
那样合法吗 Is that legal?
你最好关上车窗 You might want to close that window.
上周有只耗子就跑进车里了 Last week a rat jumped into the van.
摩西 摩西 Moses! Moses!
摩西 Hi, Moses.
别紧张 It's okay.
是我 尼克 避难街的 It's Nick, from Harbor Street.
需要帮助吗 You need anything?
你想进屋里去吗 You want to get in out of the cold?
你见过乔纳森吗 Hey, you haven't seen Jonathan, have you?
没有 几个星期没见了 No, not for weeks. Thank God.
你得拿出去喝 You have to take it outside.
大家好 我叫乔伊 我是个瘾君子 Hey, welcome. My name is Joey, and I'm an addict.
你好 乔伊 Hi, Joey.
你他妈来这儿干什么 What the fuck are you doing here?
像个僵尸似的杵在这里 Standing like some ghoul.
还好我认出是你 You're lucky I realized it was you.
否则早把你嘣了 Otherwise, bamo!
好吧 Right. Bamo.
你是来恪尽职守的吗 Are you here in your professional capacity?
从肮脏的街道上打捞流浪汉 Scooping up bodies from the filthy streets
再把他们带到避难街的宫殿去 to carry them to the Harbor Street palace?
同性恋的天堂 A haven for homos.
是的 我今晚值班 I'm working tonight, yes.
起来吧 Come on.
起来干什么 Come on, what?
快起来 今天冷得要命 Come on, it's freezing out here tonight.
要命吗 我没觉得 Freezing? I don't feel it.
他们到底还是夹着尾巴来找我了 是吧 So, they have come to me with their tails between their legs, huh?
你明白我的意思吗 You know what I say?
让他们滚蛋吧 Fuck them.
滚蛋 Fuck them.
去你妈的 避难街 Up yours, Harbor Street.
避难 街依旧不欢迎你 You are still barred from Harbor Street.
我想我以前来过这里 I think I have been here before.
是的 我曾经在这里 Yeah, I was mugged here
被一帮狗娘养的瘾君子整过 once by a bunch of mother-raping drug addicts.
谢谢 杰夫 Thanks, Jeff.
祝你好运 Good luck.
天哪 别跟我说你住这里 Christ, don't tell me you live here.
他妈的鬼地方 A fucking hellhole.
请给我来杯伏特加鸡尾酒 I'll have a vodka screwdriver, please.
这里没有酒 There is no liquor here.
没有伏特加吗 No vodka?
没有伏特加 No vodka.
好吧 反正那也不是什么好东西 Fine, it's evil shit anyway.
我存了点钱 You know, I'm putting some money aside.
我要重新开始 I'm going to get my life back together.
我在佛罗里达有个朋友 I got a friend in Florida.
能给我提供工作和住所 He's got a job and an apartment,
他们正在圣彼得堡等我 they're waiting for me in St. Petersburg.
很好 Right.
你不相信我 是吗 You don't believe me, do you?
是的 不信 No. No.
你这么说太过分了 That's a terrible thing to say,
你连自己老爹都不相信 you don't believe your own father.
我得上楼休息了 I'm going upstairs, go to bed.
我室友这周末不在 My roommates are away for the weekend.
这几天没人拦你了 You will be unbanned in a few days,
你可以在这儿住几天 so you can stay here for a bit.
再回避难街 Until you go back to Harbor Street...
不 我绝不再回那种鬼地方了 Oh, no, I'm never going back to that fucking place.
绝不 Never.
不回 Oh, no.
别在这儿喝酒 Hey, don't drink in here.
知道吗 我一直想你美丽的母亲 You know, I have been thinking about your beautiful mother
和发生意外前的事 and her non-accident.
我也在想 她怎么会那么做 And I have been thinking, why would she do something like that'?
-你要来点吗 -不 - Do you want a drink? - No.
对了 你好的是吸毒那口 Oh, right. You prefer the other stuff.
这两样上面我都有问题 I think I have a problem with both.
有问题 A problem?
我真同情你 Oh, I feel for you.
这一定是个大问题 It must be problematic.
她自杀的那晚 读过我写的东西 The night she did it, she read something I wrote.
一个故事 她以为是关于她的 A story, she thought it was about her.
是吗 Was it?
是的 Yes.
写的是一个女人身兼两职 It was about a woman who works two jobs
还努力抽时间 and tries to fit in a couple of hours
陪她儿子的故事 between each to be with her kid.
她做银行出纳 She works as a bank teller.
还兼职服务员 She works as a waitress.
一回到家就照顾孩子 She comes home and waits on the kid.
故事还没写完 I wasn't finished with the story.
我本打算写 不管她陪他多久 I was going to write how the kid appreciated it,
这个孩子都很感激她 whatever time she had for him.
他觉得她是个好母亲 He didn't think she was a bad mother.
他爱她 And he loved her.
她是他的全部 She was all he had.
我没写这段 I didn't write that part.
还没写到这里来 I didn't get that far.
所以你觉得你母亲是 So that's the story you tell
因为你写的故事自杀的 of why your mother killed herself.
我没跟别人说过 I haven't told it to anyone.
你是这么跟你自己说的 故事很棒 You tell it to yourself. Those are the best stories.
故事很美 It's a good yarn.
只有一点是在说胡话 There is only one part that's horseshit.
没有谁会因为一个故事而自杀 No one kills themselves because they read a story.
不管你是个多么出色的作家 I don't care how good a writer you are,
也不会有人因为你的文字去死 you can't kill someone with words.
我一直认为 I have a theory.
人之所以会自杀 The reason people commit suicide
是因为他们不喜欢自己 is because they don't like themselves.
自我仇恨 Self-hatred.
我觉得这个解释很合理 你觉得呢 I think it's a very reasonable explanation. Don't you?
自我仇恨 Self-hatred?
你明白这个概念吗 You're familiar with the concept?
是的 Yes.
当然 Of course,
也许问题不在于她为什么自杀 maybe the question isn't why she killed herself when she did,
而在于她为什么还坚持了那么久 but why she chose to stick around as long as she did.
不管怎么说 我的写作进展得很好 Anyway, my writing is going extremely well.
那可是经典之作 The book's classic.
对于之前你的问题 And to answer your previous question,
那本书的确存在 it does exist.
就像你的存在一样 As do you.
为什么 Why?
因为我 因为我生了你 Because of me. Because I made you.
我要去睡了 I'm going to go to sleep.
毛毯就在沙发上 The blanket's on the couch.
等等 Hey! Hold on!
你干什么 你去哪里 What are you doing? Where you going?
我去哪里 我要去我的豪宅 Where am I going? I'm going to my suite at The Ritz.
他们一给我留着 They are holding one for me
我想去就去 just in case I ever want to drop by and use it.
我得走了 再晚就错过包工头 I gotta get going. I'll be late for the slave traders,
没活可干了 all the jobs will be taken.
那你还回来吗 Well, are you coming back?
-回来哪里 -这里 - Coming back where? - Here.
我很好奇 Out of curiosity,
为什么之前你不让我跟你一起住 why have you not ever asked me to stay with you before?
我怕如果我去挽救一个堕落的人 I thought if you try and
结果却会跟他一样堕落 save a drowning man you might go down, too.
堕落的人 A drowning man?
我不堕落 I'm not a drowning man.
我是幸存者 一个艺术家 I'm a survivor! An artist!
我不会死在这里 I'm not going to die out here!
我跟你那可怜脆弱的妈妈不一样 I'm not your poor sensitive mother!
我是幸存者 I'm a survivor!
知道吗 And you know what?
幸好你是我儿子 所以你也会是个幸存者 Luckily for you, you are my son, so you are one, too!
你既不是你妈 也不是我 You are not your mother and you are not me,
尼古拉斯·弗林 Nicholas Flynn!
我收回之前的话 I absolve you!
你不是我 我生了你 但你不是我 You are not me. I made you, but you are not me!
再见 I'll see you again.
再见 Yeah.
几个月之后我离开了避难街 A few months after that I left Harbor Street.
伙计你好啊 Yo, it's the man.
再见 老兄 I'll see you later, man.
好吧 过好点 All right. Be good.
会的 Yeah.
好吧 All right.
我要走了 I'm taking off.
我听说了 Yeah, I heard.
-谢谢 -为什么谢我 - Thanks. - For what?
不为什么 For nothing.
谢谢你点醒了我 For the swift kick in the ass.
不客气 You're welcome.
不会再来避难街了吗 No more Harbor Street, huh?
我想不会了 I guess not.
你呢 在这再待一段时间吗 What about you, you gonna stay here for a while?
是的 我还有事情没做完 Yeah. I'm not done yet.
我只想说我很抱歉 I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
为什么 For what?
为你的弟弟 About your brother.
谢谢 Thank you.
好好照顾自己 Take care of yourself.
你也是 You, too.
我回到学校 I go back to school,
读完大学 拿到学士学位 finish my undergraduate degree, get my diploma.
我开了了一家诗歌讲习班 I take a poetry workshop.
我在哈林区(黑人区) 冠前街 I work in Harlem and Crown Heights
和南布朗克斯教书 and the South Bronx, teaching.
有些学校 我教的半数孩子都住在收容所 In some schools, half the kids I work with live in shelters.
那么 露西尔·克利夫顿说 So, when Lucille Clifton says,
露西尔·克利夫顿是二十世纪杰出的非裔美国女诗人
她的眼睛犹如野兽 "Her eyes are animals."
这是什么 What is that?
象征手法 An image.
象征手法 什么样的象征手法 An image. Good, but what kind of image?
比喻 A metaphor.
通过她的眼睛 她想表达什么 And what do you think she is trying to say about her eyes?
父亲一直写信给我 My father's letters follow me.
小尼克 我现在写作真是得心应手 Nicky Nu-nu, you will be happy to know
听到这个你会很高兴吧 my writing is doing extraordinarily well.
很快 我就能一鸣惊人 Soon, very soon, I shall be known.
不到一年 乔纳森成功申请了一套公寓 Within a year, Jonathan qualifies for an apartment,
八单元 有补贴 Section 8, subsidized.
在我不经意间 曾跟我共事过的人 Unbeknownst to me, some strings have been
暗地里拉了我一把 pulled by people I once worked with.
谁 Yeah?
是我 尼克 It's Nick.
哪个尼克 Nick who?
小尼克 Nicky Nu-nu.
只是想确定一下是你 Just want to make sure it's you.
很难预料这附近潜藏了什么样的人 You never know what lurks in this neighborhood.
还好吗 How are you?
跟我好好握个手 结结实实地 Shake my hand properly. Give me a firm handshake.
就是这样 That's better.
别把手握断了 Don't break it.
你这身打扮很不错 You're dressed, that's good.
这地方不错 Well, the place is nice.
是呀 Yeah.
是我的小天堂 This is my little paradise.
我的小绿洲 My little oasis.
我小家之外的 My little home away from
另一个小家 my little home.
很不错 Well, I'm impressed.
我很平静 很祥和 I'm very tranquil, I'm peaceful...
不一会儿他就陷入仇恨言论的激动情绪中 Pretty soon he launches into a familiar flurry of hate speech.
每天都有年轻的女孩被强暴 ... young girls being raped, day and night,
那些畜生 变态 by these bastards, these pederasts,
那些道貌岸然的牧师 these fucking priests,
衣冠禽兽 同性恋 these cretins, these homos.
相信我 我什么都知道 Believe me, I know all about it.
我在联邦监狱 I wasn't locked up in federal prison
可不是白待的 with choirboys, kiddo.
跨州偷运赃款 Interstate transportation of stolen securities,
这是我的罪名 that was the charge.
伪造支票这些事幕后都有主脑 The checking business brought to you by the great Dippity-Do Doyle.
如果我不按他说的做 If I didn't do what he said,
他就会杀了你们娘儿俩 he would have killed you and your mother.
相信我 孩子 Believe me, kiddo.
我无法集中精力 I have trouble focusing,
想着要不要快点离开 I consider leaving quickly,
但还是决定留下来 but I will myself to stay.
我要做的就是去银行开一个账户 My job was to enter the banks and open an account.
我是唯一一个成功搞定的 I was the only one able to finesse my way in.
秘诀是什么 秘诀是什么 The secret? The secret?
一定要找女出纳 Always go to a female teller.
黑人 坚决不能找黑人 死气沉沉的 A black? Forget about the fucking blacks. Low fucking morale.
要是找她们 我就什么都办不成 Go to them? I couldn't get on fucking first base with a black teller.
这时候是上旬 他还没查过账 It's early in the month, so he hasn't gone through his disability check yet.
这说明他一直在酗酒 This means he has been drinking.
上好的俄国伏特加 不是那种劣等酒 ... good Russian vodka. Not that rotgut crap.
来一点吗 Want some?
不了 谢谢 Uh, no, thanks.
你换新牙了 New teeth?
-你换上新牙了 -是的 - You got some new teeth. - Yep.
多亏了美国政府 有世界一流的牙医 Courtesy of Uncle Sam. Best dentist in the world.
看起来不错 Looks nice.
我给你带了样东西 Here, I brought you something.
这是什么 What the hell is this?
一本诗集 It's a book of poems.
诗集 Poems.
我写的 I wrote it.
而且还获奖了 Actually, it's getting an award.
获奖了 什么奖 An award, from whom?
-笔会文学奖 -笔会 - From Penn. - Penn.
他们给你发笔了吗 Are they giving you a pen?
是献给我的吗 Is it dedicated to me?
-不是 -不是 - No. - No?
里面有我吗 Am I in it?
有几首是写你的 There are some poems that refer to you.
我看看 Oh. Let's see.
我要掰开他的手指 I'll bend each finger back
直至酒瓶滑落 Until the bottle falls
直至关节噼啪作响 Until the bone snaps
毁灭其手救他于水火 Save him by destroying his hands
我似乎感受到一丝敌意 Do I detect a touch of hostility?
今晚我在一家书店有个小型朗读会 I'm doing a reading of it tonight at a book store.
如果愿意的话 你可以来参加 You can come, if you would like to.
好 好吧 All right, all right.
我让你看看 I'm going to let you read it.
你的书吗 Your book?
对 《纽扣人》 Yeah, The Button Man,
也称为《克里斯托弗·柯柏的自白》 also known as The Confessions of Christopher Cobb.
真有这本书 You mean it actually exists?
当然有 Of course it exists.
到底在哪儿 Where the fuck is it?
就在什么地方 It's somewhere here.
来帮把手 看看这些箱子里有没有 Give me a hand here, look in these boxes.
一本蓝色文件夹 Look for a blue folder.
找到了 I think I may have it here.
对 就是它 Yeah. This is it.
给 这是第一章 Here it is, part one.
第一章 总共有几章 This is part one? How many parts are there?
十二章 已经完成八章了 12. Eight are in existence.
叮叮 当当 哐哐 我应该是醉了 "Clink, clank, clunk. I think that I am drunk."
拜托 别在这读 那段是音乐剧 Don't read it here, for Christ's sake. That part's a musical.
我会尽快看完还给你 I will read it right away and get it back to you.
可别剽窃我的作品 Don't steal anything.
不会的 I promise.
我在一个下午读了他的书 I read his book in one afternoon.
真是部经典之作 It's a masterpiece.
我读了你的诗 I read your poems.
关于枪支的那首很沉重 That one about the gun is heavy.
这当然是遗传我的秉性 Of course it's an inherited quality.
要是你写不好 我才奇怪呢 If you didn't write well, I would be surprised.
整整三十页写满了承诺 For 30 pages it shows promise.
而后就像他的人生一样 七零八落 Then like his life, it soon falls apart and dissipates into incoherence.
他的手稿不完整 His manuscript is incomplete.
在我看来 As far as I can tell,
我父亲唯一一本完整的书 the only completed book about my father
就是让我开始写书 would be the book that fell to me to write.
我 成了父亲未署名的影子写手 Me, my father's uncredited, uncompliant ghost writer.
我一直跟利特布朗保持着联系 I've been in touch with Little Brown.
利特布朗是成立于十九世纪初的一家出版公司
他们印刷我的书 预付了四百万 They are doing my book. Four million dollars in advance.
利特布朗说我的书是传世经典 Little Brown said my book's a masterpiece.
我所写的都是经典 Everything I write is a masterpiece.
冒险者的目光从海报上剥离 The eyes of the action hero cut from the poster
全部的力量倾泻下来 All that concrete pressing down
幻化成周身的光芒 A fine edge gleams around your body
似乎萦绕了全身 As if it could be contained
贪婪地吮吸指尖 The way each finger is licked
浸入嘴里摸索着牙龈 Dipped in and rubbed across the gums
直至牙齿全部掉光 Until the teeth go away
我的手还能爱抚你 Even my hands kiss you
黑夜慢慢降临 A night broken down into grains
倘若不小心迷失 If you find yourself lost, dig
快掘一窟雪洞吧 A cave in the snow, quickly
将黑暗摒弃 You need shelter against the night
让烛光点亮希望 A candle could keep you alive
让呼吸温暖你的身体 The engine of your lungs will heat the air around you
终有人会想念你 Someone will miss you
寻寻觅觅 They will send out dogs
终将发现你的踪迹 You must be somewhere, right?
谢谢 Thank you.
给 There you go.
谢谢 谢谢您的光临 Thanks. Thanks for coming.
他来了 Uh, he's here.
乔纳森 这是伊内兹 Jonathan, this is Inez.
伊内兹 这是乔纳森 Inez, this is Jonathan.
非常荣幸 A very great pleasure.
很高兴见到你 It's good to meet you.
这是梅芙 你的小孙女 And this is Maeve, your granddaughter.
你抱抱她吗 Would you like to hold her?
不用了 Uh, that's okay.
不 他可以的 No, he can hold her.
我也抱过孩子 尼古拉斯 I have held babies before, Nicholas.
看到没 See?
我看到了 Yeah, I see.
好吧 尼古拉斯 你很有天分 All right, Nicholas, you can have it.
是我传承与你 I bequeath it to you.
现在你说了算 You have the last word.